i am coming back to God again

Yesterday was the best day of the whole entire year. first, cos school had sports day haha, i ran in the 8x50m event and came in 3rd! (there were only 4 teams! haha) but it was fun. really want to praise God for putting me into Bowen, even our own teachers are appreciative of the many things in school, like the discipline of the kids, the perfect balance between work and play, the staff support and teamwork and unity. how the school really exemplifies Christ's values even tho it is not catholic, but the spirit of the school is so evidently catholic, living out the values of Christ, like humility, helpfulness, care, unity, etc.

then rem i shared about how i struggled with sharing about God in my relationship, wow i'm amazed how God changes things around for me, how He truly provides for me. you see there's this self-help book that adrian has been reading, about how to stop worrying and how to start living life, it's one of those secular books that you'll find in any bookstore. he was quite inspired by it in the sense that when he applied what the book said, it really helped improve his life. it said things like how not to worry about the next day, how not to keep resentment, how to stay positive and so on. so it was like his 'bible'. and guess what the wonderful author actually put in verses from our catholic bible! i think he must have been surprised that the secular book actually advocated teachings from the bible. and we had a fruitful time taking and discussing about Christ's values in our lives and concrete situations in which we should apply these values. i'm so awed by God's wisdom in going such a round-about way to reach out to him. not that he's anywhere near the baptismal font, but now i've learnt that it's really more important to be nearer the peace and love of Christ in our lives.

and the issue about my relationship with my father. i am trying to pray for the courage to take a step closer to share more about myself and to ask more about him in our conversations. hope it will help gradually in deepening our relationship.

and i realized that i've been belittling the power and the significance and impact of prayer. how i've dismissed prayer as unimportant and unnecessary. how wrong i've been. so this lent, (my real first resolution) i hope to take prayer more seriously and to put more of my heart and soul into meaning what i pray and praying what i really mean inside.

it's been a fantastic wonderful end-of-the-week. Praise God. I love you Jesus and Father God.

eeever-lynn