unless a grain of wheat shall fall...

Hello ppl.

Haven't shared for a long time

i am so guilty!!!

anyway on a serious note since everyone is sharing bout his/her quarter life crisis

I guess this is the period of our lives whereby many of us start asking ourselves what we really want out of life.


I read an article bout a man by name of Aaron Chan who just came back from Afghanistan, he was thr for 6 mths. I was touched by his story the pictures which came with it.
Afghanistan- a place everyone portrays with terrorism, a place no one will ever think of going. but in reality it is actually as humane as the rest of the world.

And in another part of the world, there are people who do not even have money to buy water. Even though they are from the 3rd world economy, GDP much lower than ours, they pay more as compared to many developed nations like singapore for 1 L of water.

And in Palestine itself, the ppl's fate, are decided by the Isrealis who were supposedly the victims of the war! freedom? ability to move ard as they move? nth of such...

These real life articles really tug on my heart strings.

one of the reason why i didn't believe in god when i was younger was cos, of this basic fundamental, if there was a god, why are thr still sufferings... why are

But i learned that it is thru sufferings which bring us closer to god... and i see truth in it. when i read about heart warming stories like the ones above, peopel speak of love, of compassion, it just touches u.... u feel a peace within.

A mth ago.. when i melt up with my team mates for supper... they asked me if god has really changed my life for the better. their reason being that ever since i decided to spend more time to know god... i became more emotional and have been experiencing frequent uncalled for mood swings.

i really wonder...

God has answered many questions i have been pondering about the past 21 yrs... at same time many many more doors of queries were opened. these new doors shook my foundation on who i am? what is my purpose in life... many questions which i thought i have long answered b4 my peers. As i know our lord more and more, i started to feel more and more ordinary, i felt like a common man just passing the days. For 1st time in my life i do not have any vision,didn't have this drive to succeed anymore.." wat i wanna be when i grow up, an auditor loh what else" this ans to myself now is so unsatisfying...cos i had so many ambitions b4 i knew god. but i just don't believe in those ambitions any longer.

why? cos i admit that i was building these ambitions on the wrong rock.
and some things have gotta go..

it is hard... trying to move away from crowds, hoping to escape the question of " what u really want to be when u graduate?" cos right now... i really have no idea

i am actually amazed how i put my faith in our lord even though i only know him for this short period of time.

Sometimes i am afraid... really wonder if all these is worth it... it is something i may never know.

But i guess the beauty of it all which adds sparks to the little flame in me is the comfort he gives me when i read and learn bout people's suffering.

reading up about the 3rd world nations, histories of nations, today's conflicts has always been my interest. But there were so many things i don't understand
recently, i developed a deeper appreciation of the situation, and my reflection after every new finding was no more about fueling the burning desire to be someone who will change the world one day, but it is more of so what am i going to do to make a difference to the world today.

when i humble myself, indulge in serenity, i start to appreciate every moment which pass better. It gives me a greater understanding to the phase i live by during my teenage years" cape diem"
-live life as if its your last... cos i finally understand the beauty of it all... to celebrate, enjoy when i am with friends... to thank lord for the quiet ME time i have.

fast life, working to the top, cute chicks, days of social butterfly is now taken over by church, books and maybe just a bit of social life. am i enjoying it? hmm i will be lying if i say yes, if i say no it will not put a good ending to my sharing right :)

lets just say that i am awed by so many mysteries in life left unraveled and so many books and history left untouched. It is amazing how many things we are doing now are all gifts we sometimes take for granted

PS: lets start saving up on water! don't brush your teeth with the tap left running
use less water when bathinG!!!

HA!@

steven
And it is something i am in control of it all, with a direct line of help.