unless a grain of wheat shall fall...

Hi all!!

I think this post has been long overdue. Sorry I am a dory! It only occurred to me during my planning for the summer break that if I do not enter this post now, the things I gonna share now may never resurfaced again, and will just become part of ‘garage’ part of the memory.

Easter pass and gone. Guess it has’t been an easy one for me-struggling with faith and where my priorities lie, and you for the many questions which cause much distress

Just when I thought Community is just a social club, thank you Collin whose sincere questioning of my experience changed my perspective of community altogether. I realized that I was using a cognitive perception of people from the start, which hindered my judgement all along. As I reflected over the beautiful sharing the lord has given us the other night, I humbled myself to admit that the reason of me not getting the most out of community is cos I don’t know much bout it in the first place.

–why should there be a community?
-why a need for sharing
-is it just a club for us to feed our emotional wants?

I was awed by how these questions were vividly explained to me that night, most of the answers to my qualms and expectations were unveiled.

With this, I praise lord for the time spent guys at coffee bean. Despite the fear of exams which are drawing near, its amazing how I felt good after that gathering. You get what I mean don’t you, the ‘man… I am so guilty I should be at home studying’ kind of feeling’. But we just put everything aside and discuss about issues which are close to our heart. That was definitely more fruitful than studying.

Last week, a friend asked me bout my experience during Easter. I had so much to tell, all the way from the start of lent, to the night of holy Thurs and eater vigil. For many who share the faith, Easter may just be at day by its own, and its hard even for them to understand why one will put himself into so much ‘trouble’-traveling by cab to and fro to attend station of cross, attending daily mass, trying to balance sch work and faith when it seems relatively simple to many, its simple-faith shall take the backseat,

And the unexplainable love, sadness, struggle, happiness-mixed emotions just propelled me this whole week


As Emily tan has said in his post-This exam is the best I ever had - not cos it is easy but cos of the struggle, to put faith first, and me putting our lord into perspective


I super enjoy myself during the studying process. (I found this beautiful place to study at NTU!!! WOW!


See super beautiful! its actually an amphitheatre, the acoustics is excellent! super good venue to jam, or hold a play. love this place lots, hope to perform here one day! but now, it shall be study!!

Steven!