giving credit to Him

thanks Joshua for heading praise and worship session yest.

My revelation for yest is why I still come running back to God after so many unexpected unpleasant events occured in my life.

Do we join a community to experience God or is cos of the love of God that we have the desire to share his love with others.

A question i was pondering about last week was the difference between my cycling team, my running team, my friends and community. I find joy riding round singapore to malaysia to thailand with my friends. I enjoy the comradaire in my running team, how we saw each other through the tough training everyday, was during this period of time that I ask myself this question," why do I still come travelling to and fro for community events, knowing that i will be issued another challenge which i may not be receptive to, why do I still come for community if I can spend the time cycling, n experience God on my own.

And so my question is answered. Its that simple. It is because of God. I join cycling because of my love of cycling. once the love of it gone is gone, naturally i will bid farewell to the team. I train with my running team because of the companionship and stay because of the common goal to achieve something together. If i one day i cannot run again, i will not stay and be happy just to be the team's water boy evvery other day. Yest when I was having high tea with 4 of my filty rich Tai tai aunties who are well respected individuals in shenton way, they frown when I told them I am not interested in pursuing double degree just to ensure a brighter future. They thought i was out of my mind pursuing a teaching profession rather than striving in the money rich economy. birds of the same flock come together, i spend the next 2 hrs filling my plate with food while they were talking about the shares to invest in, companies to look at, courses theier teenage children should take in order to ahead of the rest of their peers. Birds of the same kind flock together, the ugly duckling was a swan never accpeted because of it difference. the same reason why hillary and bush can't agree on things. andy anders0n and hillary are best of friends. Its basically the core, the ideals which hold friends, family, organisations together.

So why will i choose to still be part of a community, it will be cos of my love for God. The only time I will choose to leave a community is cos of my severed relationship with the lord, regardless of whether its cos of hurt, guilt, unforgiveness, pain, anger which make me do so. So its not about the community, but my relationship with God isn't it.

For those who were not ard yest, Joshua share with the kids how we all don't have to join minitries, communities, organise retreats just to impress God. Cos He actually just want us for who we are. He want us even though we are sinners, brokened and unworthly as we always feel we are. Its cos of our relationship with God, our love for Him, the love that overflow which results in us serving in our various ministries and communities.

I was at SPP in the afternoon. I wanted to prepare myself for the spiritual prep of the kids at night. When i was at adoration room reciting the rosary and devine mercy, I chance upon this phrase- family that prays together stays together.

I came back to the community yest regardless of how tired i was because i know that just simply being there, praying, will change lives. its just like sun tanning. we spend the day in the sun, most of the time not satisfied with our tan at the end of the day, but we always get darker than we already are. We may not see the lived we have changed, but we definitely have.